Trans vaginal whhhaaatt again???

There is something godess-like about a pregnant woman...someone said to me.... And then I went for my first appointment with the gynecologist we picked after much discussion..... And here's how it went... "when was your last period?", "is this a planned pregnancy?", "No? You were using birth control?", "No?....uh..okay?", "so I'm writing out a scan, TVS, please get it done and come back" Ok so I know they don't hand out flowers to newly pregnant women but why do I get the feeling I've done something illegal? sniff.. Ushered into the ultrasound room and I guess I should have panicked when the male technician left and the nurse pulled the curtain across and said..."remove pant!!" .... Okaaayyy but she dint even buy me dinner... I meekly ask..."what for" She says smiling like I'm a two year old.... " ma'am trans vaginal scan....means from inside" ..."gulp!! I dint sign up for this" The next thing I know is that this curling iron shaped probe is covered by a condom and jelly and shoved right up.... Honestly I could have cried.... A teensy bit of my dignity is restored by a sheet covering up the injustice... N the technician comes back in to push the probe around... Yes more humiliation... He refuses to make eye contact even... Just as I'm giving up on anything being sacred anymore, he cranks up the speakers... "lug-dub-lug-dub-lug-dub........!!!!'" I hear it at the most frantic pace... Like a horse galloping heard through a wall of water... The montintor is turned so that I can see it and he points to a tiny bean shaped thing.. Sooosoooooooo tiny... He says "thats the foetus..... I'd say about 6 weeks" looks normal.... I was hooked and not to mention crying my eyes out..... In that one moment, that first time that you hear a heart beating frantically you realize that it's nothing short of the most beatiful magic.... That bean is your baby!!! Part of you forever.... N your heart is never yours ever again....